1:45pm
So as if my depression and anxiety aren’t bad enough my baby Prince seems to have an infection, possibly urinary tract type. I’ve been trying real hard to not freak out about it. He’s not showing any symptoms of pain, no problems urinating, he does have puss around this lipstick though which concerns me. Holiday weekend too so hopefully we can get through til vet opens back up on Tuesday. I don’t like when our baby isn’t feeling well. He is just laying around. 😦 Received an invite to cookout at my daughters house tomorrow went in to tell mom and forgot why I walked in their. The loss of my thoughts often is troublesome as well. I’m almost bi-polar when I get angry and get raged and sadness is uncontrollable sobbing. More later,
Love to all…
7:58pm
I can’t take this emotional roller coaster. I’m fine and ready to take Prince to the dog park and I go to give Prince water and my water bowls are missing and I fly into a rage. I’m surprised I have anyone in my life that cares I swear. Then I tear up and cry because I have just freaked out on someone I love dearly. I hate this so much. It is how it was at work one little thing would set me off and I would have to walk outside or go to the restroom and re-adjust. When will it stop? When will we get the right combination of meds? I wish I could go off all of them and start fresh but we go down on an important one and I get worse. Its an insane cycle of up and down, add and subtract medications. Where did Christa go? I miss the ol’ gal that laughed a lot more than she cried.
Love to all…
lawhun_madden 
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