Memorial Day! A day we celebrate those that died for us and our freedom. Too bad anytime I have gotten together with anyone for a Memorial Day picnic or whatnot we have never even discussed the war or the deaths. I think it’s been forgotten in place of a 3 day weekend of drinking, games, small little vacations and more. Don’t misunderstand I am not judging I too have enjoyed picnics and fun. This year I spent my day in my room for the most part. I had a brief moment of joy when the great-grandbabies came over. Noah and Caleb. Caleb pissed all over me and I smiled. Which was nice because I have been so angry today for no reason I can think of.
Depression and anxiety baffle me on a daily basis. Some days I just am. That’s the only way I can explain it-I just am. Today I was angry not at any one thing just angry, tearful and angry for being tearful. I feel like I am going crazy of course I mentioned that when I started this blog. I miss the funny me that could laugh when she wanted to cry, who could laugh when she was angry because she was being to serious. Does any of this make sense? Does any of it matter? I know I am not alone in this world because I have had dear friends deal with this and tried to not say the wrong thing to them.
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