lawhun_madden

So I hate conflict!

Most people who know me know this is true.  Oh I will speak my mind on certain things but most often than not if its going to cause a huge debate or argument I am out.  Especially these days with this depression and anxiety issue I have.

So I paid Prudential for 18 years I worked for long-term disability.  I find out not only does long term mean max of two years, I have literally received 2 payments from these people and they are saying they will help me with Social Security Disability.  Really?  I had to wait four months for my first payment, I get my second payment and they are ready to move me on down the line.  Now I didn’t ask to be put on disability I had a major melt down in my shrinks office.  But really? 18 years of payments and they only are paying the 6.2/3 of the 66.6 & 2/3 I get paid.  So we are talking about less than 500 bucks.  Seriously people why do we pay for insurance?

I paid disability insurance on one of my personal loans and was told that there was a clause that stated if I had a pre-existing issue 6 months before or after I took out the loan it was null.  Seriously?  Makes ya think now doesn’t it?

I can be more honest in a blog than directly to some friends and family members as it is easier because of no conflict.  Or I should say easier not to have the conflict.

What happened in Orlando was horrific!  But I have some friends posting about the real true horrific mass murder was 200+ Indians back in 1850.  OK so the media screwed up but lets not take away that 49/50 (depends on where you read about it) were killed for being at the wrong place and wrong time.  Yes they happened to be in a LGBT establishment which hits me hard as a lesbian I could have been there.  Well since I am not in Florida I couldn’t but you get my drift.  What do I say to these family/friends this type of stuff pisses me off.  I respect everyone’s right to their opinion I say to myself.  I guess pissed isn’t it more hurt than anything.  How can you say you accept me for who I am but then say I’m a sinner? Say you love me for who I am but post extreme right-wing crap that is totally offensive?  Now I am just babbling.  I’ll have to write more another time my brain is moving faster than my fingers.

Love to all…