Well I haven’t been here in some time now. Just been doing a whole lot of nothingness. Trying to feel better and over all the rest has helped. To bad on a scale from 1-10 where 10 in most painful, I run a steady 7/8 on a daily. So last night I was getting Prince from mother since her girlfriends were here to pick her up and I was giving her her purse; through that transaction I managed to do a nose dive off the second step. Skinned my elbow and of course the rest of my body went all sorts of ways. I am sure if was a funny sight yet pretty painful today. To top it off its 34* which makes all my bones ache so yay me! Thank God Jake’s still walking Prince 30 minutes each day it has been awesome having him walk a mile each day. He’s a little calmer now and sleeps through the night more. Not having to get up 3/4 times a night to take out and potty is a wonderful thing.
So we’re coming up on Thanksgiving and I have loads to be thankful for but I feel like all I do is whine and bitch. Chronic Pain, Depression, Anxiety, etc. put such a strain on our bodies and there is the acting like everything is fine when we are with others is frankly exhausting. I’m sure many can feel me on this one. I have a roof over my head, great family and friends, but I don’t know if they know how much I truly appreciate them. Most times food in my stomach there are many things to be grateful for. Heck I keep waking up that great I suppose. Not to convencing am I? That’s cause I pray God will take me home and put me out of this misery. Guessin I’m not done doing whatever it is I am supposed to do yet.
Then there’s Christmas that used to be a great holiday but disability pay barely pays my bills let alone get gifts for grand-kids. We usually make it work but just wish I could figure out why I am here and what is it I am supposed to be doing with my life. Guess that’s it for now.
Love to all…
lawhun_madden 
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