In the past week I have felt so many emotions I couldn’t keep up. I have been in a rage twice – so unlike me. Sad, happy, disappointed, fearful, concerned, I have had uncontrollable tears may times, and more I am sure that I just haven’t identified yet.
I was also productive been working the corner in my room that is a catch all and has been for longer than I want to admit, years. Once I have my file cabinet moved and the crap on the floor cleaned off I will have to wash the walls. So many dust bunnies and smoke crap.
😦 Disappointed in myself that it had gotten so bad, yet excited that I am taking care of cleaning it up one day at a time little by little.
Another positive note I met with the Boston Scientific rep and had my stimulator reprogrammed. Had genetic testing done to see what meds are working and what my body is wasting. Got my new prescription on pain meds that actually have me up and moving again. And was able to do a rescue run for five puppies which calmed me down.
So my week was busy, yet chaotic but overall good I suppose. Depression is kicking my arss I’m telling you. I can’t imagine this past 7 months had I been at work I am confident I would have been fired. New boss was an arss and I have little respect for the man. I’m in pain and exhausted from todays run.
Love to all ❤
lawhun_madden 
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