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So last night I started an eight week class at the church I have been going to for a few weeks now.  I jumped right in you might say.  I like the pastor he makes me laugh; he has a way of saying things that make sense.  Thus the reason I thought I would jump right into this class, also the class is free and I’m all about free.  Starting point is a place I can ask questions and explore what the church is all about.  They say nothing is off limits and I hope that is true because I question a lot.  We watched a video then had a discussion.  We were there an hour and forty-five minutes.  I couldn’t believe the time when we were done.  Six people signed up but only two of us showed for the first class.  Things happen and I think it was perfect for myself and the other person as it was less intimidating.  Its cool because you don’t have to be religious or from a religious back-ground.  Now I am very spiritual.  I have no doubt in my mind that there is a greater being.  I wouldn’t be alive today if there wasn’t I believe this with all my heart.  I just am not sure about evolution as far as how people came about or if Jesus actually died and arose again.  The best part about this first session was Andy Stanley (on the video) talked about Paul and that he knew people, and knew people that knew people that witnessed the death and rising of Jesus.  This was all before the bible was even written.  Again, I am on the fence but thus far Vale has been a church I feel comfortable in even though I am still very anxious when going I calm down quickly.  I grateful my classmate Peggy asked if I was going this past Sunday and saved me a seat.  Not the experience I got my first time going alone for sure.  I will continue going until something offends or upsets me and I will try very hard not to judge as I have been judged in the past.  With dealing with all the health issues I have been having it kind of feels right to be trying something out of my comfort zone.  Growing up I always said “God loves you and so do I!”  Using the term God is just easier than trying to explain how I feel.  We shall see what where this journey takes me.  I don’t feel as hopeless as I have been which is a good thing.

Love to all…..